When at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter. They are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you for so long.
After completing the fourth step, we suddenly find ourselves staring at Step 5—admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. Though Step 5 is one of the simplest steps to work, many of us approach it with dread. And that is a perfectly understandable feeling to have given the nature of what we’re about to do—sharing our Step 4 inventories with another person. If you are dreading Step 5, you need to understand and accept that the majority of recovering sex and porn addicts find that they cannot successfully maintain sobriety and move forward in their recovery while keeping shameful secrets. You are likely no exception. Step 5 must be worked!
Task for Today
Share a shameful secret in a meeting, with your sponsor, or with your therapist.