The universe has shaken you to awaken you.
If you’ve diligently worked the first ten steps and find yourself still at odds with the spiritual nature of recovery, especially in Step 11, that’s OK. Instead of fretting, try thinking about Step 11 as part of an ongoing spiritual practice, and think of practice as a learning process. Thus, you are not expected to work this step perfectly. In fact, most recovering addicts find that the mere effort of working Step 11 is more important in terms of lasting positive effects than any other factor. So, however it is that you understand (or don’t understand) your Higher Power, that’s just peachy. You don’t have to be a devout Christian, Jew, Muslim, Buddhist, or anything else to work Step 11, because Step 11 isn’t about religion. Instead, it’s about finding your personal spiritual center, whatever that might be.
Task for Today
Think about a Higher Power that works for you, rather than trying to force yourself into someone else’s version of a Higher Power.